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Jun 2016

We Can Go for a Walk Where It’s Quiet and Dry, and Talk About Precious Things: Transmission 280, 2016 June 1

400_blows_look_cd.jpg We began a busy June with a busy show. In it, we conducted a good deal of business--Physical Evidence, Listening Parlour, and a couple of "post-punk" birthday observances. We mean them all, even Lady Catharsis, who is really laboring through her introduction to "Work Hard."

It's always the 30th anniversary of something, but this year seems to be the 30th anniversary of quite a bit--or so it seems to a person of my age and sensibility. The Queen Is Dead, released just as school was getting out, was the soundtrack of that summer, the last of Smithdom, and much more. Lady Catharsis does not go for the title tune, but she is nuts.

400 Blows were the soundtrack of that fall, though, "Movin'" blowing my mind just as college was beginning to blow my mind. I paid more attention to the tunes than to classes, I have to admit. The inauspicious beginnings of a mediocre career--but I still have the records, which does not seem like a bad deal.

BOMBAST playlist, 2016 June 1, 2100-2300:

  1. "The Queen Is Dead" | The Smiths | The Queen Is Dead | Rough Trade - Sire
  2. "Post Apocalyptic Love Song (The End)" | Johnny Moped | It's A Real Cool Baby | Damaged Goods
  3. "Little Jewel" | Blackie & The Oohoos | Lacuna | Unday
  4. "Breakdown" | 400 Blows | Look | Illuminated | "Physical Evidence"
  5. "Kiri" | CB-R | DRSL | Cut Mistake
  6. "Susan" | The Goon Sax | Up to Anything | Chapter Music
  7. "Back Side of the Moon" | The Orb | The Orb's Adventures Beyond the Ultraworld [reissue] | WAU! Mr. Modo - Island
  8. "Riots Over London" | 400 Blows | Look | Illuminated | "Physical Evidence"
  9. "Scrimshaw" | Anna Meredith | Varmints | Moshi Moshi
  10. "Protein" | Tropicana | Cosmos #1 | SVS
  11. "The Charmer" | 400 Blows | Look | Illuminated | "Physical Evidence"
  12. "Nought Marie" | Little Annie | Trace | Tin Angel
  13. "Enigma" | The Durutti Column | LC [reissue] | Factory Benelux
  14. "Play For Today" | The Cure | Staring At The Sea - The Singles | Fiction - Elektra
  15. "Femern" | Matt Karmil | ++++ | PNN
  16. "Hollow Hills" | Bauhaus | Mask [reissue] | Beggars Banquet - Hostess
  17. "Etheriel" | Lush | Origami | 4AD
  18. "Fred Wesley Suffers Spontaneous Human Combustion" | 400 Blows | Look | Illuminated | "Physical Evidence"
  19. "Maersk Recorder" | Matthew Collings | A Requiem for Edward Snowden | Denovali
  20. "Broken Violin (Afternoon Recording)" | Waterhouse | Empty Gallery EP | Decisions
  21. "Curfew" | Fatima Al Qadiri | Brute | Hyperdub
  22. "Work Hard (East End Remix)" | Depeche Mode | Everything Counts (In Larger Amounts) | Mute - Sire | "Listening Parlour"
  23. "Movin'" | 400 Blows | Look | Illuminated | "Physical Evidence"
  24. "La fin de la guerre" | Dorian Pimpernel & Julian Gasc | Moonshine, Vol. 1 | Born Bad
  25. "Break Through" | Funkees | Can't You Hear Me? | Now-Again
  26. "Regular" | The Range | Potential | Domino
  27. "The Morality of Altitude" | 400 Blows | Look | Illuminated | "Physical Evidence"

what an accessory

Jun 2016

Wandering Up And Down Those Avenues Of Sin: Transmission 279, 2016 May 18

milkshakes_band_photo.jpg Again we've reached a point where the website is shamefully out of date. Friend of Bombast Mateu says he has run out of things to listen to, so like an arthritic tortoise I spring into action. Here is a Medway Night that happened nearly a month ago.

I recall things beginning well enough, and then somewhere the segues just stopped working. With (The(e)) Milkshakes it is always this way. I managed to fulfill an Antibalas request, about three weeks late, but I have no idea whether Drummer John was listening, or if he has internet. Maybe someone reading this can tell him it happened.

Thanks for listening.

BOMBAST playlist, 2016 May 18, 2100-2300:

  1. "And We Begin" | Loose Capacitor | The Delaware Road | Buried Treasure
  2. "Green Hornet" | Milkshakes | 19th Nervous Shakedown | Big Beat | "Physical Evidence"
  3. "Around the World with the Prophets" | The (Hypothetical) Prophets | Around the World With | Infine
  4. "ROM" | Thug Entrancer | Arcology | Software
  5. "Uprising (Parts 1 & 2)" | Antibalas with Jojo Quo | Africafunk: Return to the Original Sound of 1970s Funky Africa | Harmless
  6. "C'est de l'or" | Forever Pavot & Dorian Pimpernel | Moonshine, Vol. 1 | Born Bad
  7. "Stones for Throwing" | Cavalier Song | Blezard | God Unknown
  8. "Dark Entries" | Bauhaus | 5 Albums | Beggars Banquet - Hostess
  9. "You Did Her Wrong" | Milkshakes | 19th Nervous Shakedown | Big Beat | "Physical Evidence"
  10. "Patience" | Lifetones | For a Reason | Light in the Attic
  11. "There Is So Much Static (feat. Eivind Aarset)" | Tortusa | I Know This Place: The Eiving Aarset Collages | Jazzland
  12. "It's You" | Milkshakes | 19th Nervous Shakedown | Big Beat | "Physical Evidence"
  13. "Leaves Me Cold" | Lush | Origami | 4AD
  14. "My Zippo" | King Snake Roost | Dope, Guns & Fucking In The Streets: 1988-1998 Volume 1-11 | Amphetamine Reptile
  15. "Wise Ol' Man (edit)" | The Fall | Wise Ol' Man EP | Cherry Red
  16. "Transgalactic World Eater" | BLOWN OUT | A Warmer Welcome | digitalDIZZY
  17. "Don't Love Another" | Milkshakes | 19th Nervous Shakedown | Big Beat | "Physical Evidence"
  18. "Uwe" | Tobias Schmid | Hamburg Elektronisch 3 | hafendisko
  19. "Bardo" | Fontan | Babylon EP | Hoga Nord
  20. "General Belgrano" | Milkshakes | 19th Nervous Shakedown | Big Beat | "Physical Evidence"
  21. "Coming Home" | Wells Fargo | Can't You Hear Me? | Now-Again
  22. "Cruising Central Ave" | The 4th Coming | Strange Things (The Complete Works, 1970-1974) | Now-Again
  23. "Brand New Cadillac" | Milkshakes | 19th Nervous Shakedown | Big Beat | "Physical Evidence"
  24. "To Believe" | K-X-P | III, Pt. 2 | Svart
  25. "Dreamt Person v3" | Venetian Snares | Traditional Synthesizer Music | Planet Mu
  26. "Ambassador of Love" | Milkshakes | 19th Nervous Shakedown | Big Beat | "Physical Evidence"
  27. "Over It" | Junior Boys | Big Black Coat | City Slang
  28. "Helena" | Yndi Halda | Under Summer | Big Scary Monsters

you should hear me play piano

Jun 2016

A Presence Conjured From Thin Air: Transmission 278, 2016 May 14

a1226928842_10.jpg Another successful journey to the "Exterior Realms" (at least I think so) gives me the opportunity to go "off-topic" and give you a more general update. I promised last time that I would share another story from the Senior Catharses' visit as well. Fortunately we can put our hands together in this case.

Grandpa Catharsis asked me why I hadn't done any interviews latey, pointing out that the Hall of Legends specials were one of his favorite things about this program. That's nice! (In my tradition of turning every compliment into a negative, I started wondering what might be wrong with regular, non-interview programs like this one.) It just so happened that we drove down to DJ Segundo's crib for a short visit and HE asked me the same thing, so clearly we are facing a wavelength with room for more than one person.

Very well--let's talk about the Hall of Legends and why it has been dormant. Turns out there is no legitimate reason except What Is Going On With Me, so I'll discuss that. [REMEMBER: this is my diary, so GTFO if you are not entertained.]

Sometime around the HOL interview with the great Breathless I experienced a personal trauma that was as serious as it was ridiculous. In a way I couldn't actually believe it was happening, in real-time, and didn't read much significance in my immediate response to it. Surveying the damage in retrospect, I stopped going to the gym (which for me substitutes for depression meds), gained weight, increased my alcohol consumption, and generally became very angry.

"But Breathless was not the most recent Hall of Legends special," I hear you saying. (I do not actually hear this, except in an imagined conversation with the Platonic Ideal of a Regular Listener.) It's true. Three months later we spoke to the legendary Vini Reilly, but I literally can't tell you how long that was in the planning, and it just kind of happened one day. A little over a month after that, we did the Heidi Berry interview. But that was "in the pipeline" when the Breathless thing was happening, because the legendary Ari was prescient enough, and kind enough, to ask if I'd like to be placed in contact with the legendary Heidi and I wasn't a big enough idiot to say "no." So because I am a PROFESSIONAL (albeit an unskilled and unpaid one) I held it together long enough to see that through. And then we stopped.

MEANWHILE I was supplementing my permanent half-time sinecure with temporary half-time sinecures that filled me with despair. I continued to do the job of Program Director at WRFI all by myself although there were nominally two of us; there were negative aspects of that which were practical, personal, and racial, none of which helped with my demeanor or general outlook. When I "quit" that position last June I somehow found ways to become more angry, more bitter, and more destructive. I KNOW: I am special this way.

Amazingly, last (summer? fall?) I did get up the nerve to contact a Legend In Waiting, and we had a promising dialogue in some etherspace or other. Something was going to happen, and then it fell through, because I have become a flake. I also received an assurance from one already-Legend that something could be arranged with yet another Legend In Waiting, but this never happened because the person in question never uses the internet. At least that is why I'm telling myself it never happened. I am capable of protecting myself sometimes.

Thus, out the window flew one possible way of spending my newfound free time as a non-management type at the radio station. Other possible hobbies went unexplored as well. I was, as I concluded, using alcohol at night to self-medicate. It is very good at killing feelings! How anxiously I looked forward each day to the murder of my feelings.

In October I came around to thinking that maybe this was a bad idea, that this daily homicide wasn't taking me anywhere good, so with Lady Catharsis's help I stopped altogether. But the Feelings, which I had decided I needed to feel, were so awful, and the lack of medication so excruciating, that I filled the void not with productivity but with food. Because of course I can't just suffer from depression and PTSD and anxiety. THAT is boring. I must also have Binge Eating Disorder and Body Dysmorphia in my life to keep things interesting.

(It's funny to think that, all the while, I've been doing this ridiculous little program on the reg, cracking up at my mistakes like nothing relevant is actually happening around it or me. But this has saved, and is saving, my life, as LC tells me, so there's that.)

I started having suicidal "ideation" --if you know how that might differ from "thoughts," please explain it to me--in November of last year, and I was able to keep them at bay only by telling myself "you wouldn't just kill some random kid's dad, or some random woman's husband, so how can you do anything to Catharsis Junior's dad, or Lady Catharsis's husband?" Meaning that I had to get outside my own self to see me as something worth preserving, in the abstract. I figured that maybe the time had come for me to talk to somebody, so I did.

Things are not miraculously better--it has taken work--but some healing is taking place. I can "containerize" the feelings and set standards and boundaries for myself--these are novelties! My work situation has improved in ways that it could not have done for 2015 me. So, yeah.

Anyway, were I a Legend I would not have wanted to talk to this community radio jackass in a bad mindframe (there's something to add to the ol' email signature) for any amount of time, much less for the amount of time I demand from people, MUCH MUCH LESS the TWO times poor Andrew Gray was subjected to the experience.

So that's why the Hall of Legends hasn't had anything happen in seventeen months. But things are revving up again. I have to convince that one Legend that I am not actually a flake. Maybe I will send them a link to this. I have a feeling they might understand.

I sincerely hope that if you need to talk to someone, you find a person. Or that if you need something like an amateur radio hour to keep you tethered to this world, you find an outlet. Maybe we can be that outlet. It's working for me.

Thanks for listening.

BOMBAST playlist, 2016 May 14, 2100-2300:

  1. "Jah I" | Lee "Scratch" Perry & The Upsetters | Mr. Perry I Presume | Pressure Sounds
  2. "Blackhole" | Deviant Amps | A Warmer Welcome | digitalDIZZY
  3. "What a World!" | Parade of Sinners | Domestic Landscape, Vol. 2: Underrated Synth Classics 1982-1990 | Domestica
  4. "Bubble" | Stabat Stable | Ultrissima on the Junk's Moon | Cache Cache
  5. "Angora - Fairmont Remix" | Ricardo Tobar | Ricardo Tobar - Collection Remixes Pt. 1 | Cocoon
  6. "R-Type" | Anna Meredith | Varmints | Moshi Moshi
  7. "She Wore Lilacs in Her Hair" | Magic Castles | Starflower | A Recordings
  8. "Head Body" | Not Waving | Animals | Diagonal
  9. "Shanpan" | Roger West | En Asie | In Paradisum
  10. "The Wheel" | PJ Harvey | The Wheel | Island
  11. "Sequencer Roll" | Baumann / Koek | Baumann / Koek | Bureau B
  12. "I Had A Dream (instrumental)" | 5 Revolutions | Can't You Hear Me? | Now-Again
  13. "Macka Talk" | Mabrak | Drum Talk | Dug Out
  14. "Foxtits Funkdrive" | Zach Christ | Sonic Doucheclap | Husoptageiser
  15. "Aokigahara (feat. Tobi)" | Asian Psilocybe Foundation | Water Vein EP | Mental Groove
  16. "Galacticon" | Ummagma | Frequency | Moon Sounds
  17. "break glass actions" | Cavern of Anti-Matter | void beats / invocation trex | Duophonic
  18. "Powers of Ten - Marco Plex & Shall Ocin Remix" | Stephan Bodzin | Powers of Ten (remixes) | Herzblut
  19. "Comin' Home Baby" | Booker T. & The M.G.'s | Green Onions | Rumble
  20. "The Shag" | Trouble & Strife | The Delaware Road | Buried Treasure
  21. "Thousands Below" | 12z | Trembling Air | Other People
  22. "Always" | Flying Saucer Attack | Chorus [reissue] | Drag City
  23. "The Sombre" | Shallow Sanction | Without Light | Alter
  24. "Numbered" | Wire | Nocturnal Koreans | Pinkflag
  25. "Earth (Gaia)" | The Orb | The Orb's Adventures Beyond the Ultraworld [reissue] | WAU! Mr. Modo - Island
  26. "Bestandteil" | Irmler | Bestandteil | Klangbad
  27. "Favourite Descending Intervals" | The Durutti Column | Amigos Em Portugal | Durutti

For you I steal, for you I kill

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